5% - 227.8 (-11.99)
10% - 215.8 (-23.98)
15% - 203.8 (-35.97)
20% - 191.8 (-47.96)
25% - 179.8 (-59.95)
30% - 167.8 (-71.94)

final goal weight:
160 - 180 lbs
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Friday, January 9, 2015

Shit just got real...

I'm back! 

I can't believe it's been since Sept that I've blogged.  Well, yes I kind of can.  Life has been busy!!!!  I had full intentions of redoing BBM 2.0 but honestly, I didn't like it.  I decided to redo BBM 1.0 with some friends but then eventually threw in the towel on day 45 on Oct 20:

"Ladies, I suck! I am not fully committed to the challenge this time. I feel horrible for not posting but I keep letting life get in the way. I NEED to do the workouts but am having a hard time getting to them. So unless something changes then I won't be posting the workouts. If someone else wants to do it then please do!!! I hope you all are able to get the workouts in. I'm not making any excuses come the 3.0 challenge though and I will need you guys, my accountability partners!"

So I let life get in the way and didn't make time for it.  Then I decided to let life just get in the way, period.  I didn't watch what I was eating or drinking and stopped working out regularly.  I started snacking at night and not healthy choices.  I was drinking more beer and wine than normal.  Then the holidays came and that brought more food and sweets.  It was not pretty!

I knew the weight was creeping back.  The batteries in my scale had died so I had no idea what I weighed.  I could feel it though!  I was not happy and borderline depressed about it.  It affected my life more than I thought.  I noticed that my seat belt in my car didn't have as much slack, something I've never worried about.  I was exhausted more.  And honestly it was affecting sex, something I never mentioned to Jim but I'm sure he knew.  I hated the way I look.  My stomach felt like it was growing by the day!  I felt like I looked pregnant and I hate that!!!!

SOOOO, Monday came around and I saw that it was Jan 5.  The start of BBM 3.0!  I decided to switch the batteries in my scale and see if it made it come on.  It did!  I nervously stepped on and saw 251 lbs!  The HIGHEST I have ever been...ever!  Shit just got real!!!!  I knew it was bad but not that bad.  I had a melt down!  Tears, self pity, searching for motivational quotes and pictures.  I texted my BFF and Mom, my two main supporters.  They were great. 

I decided that TODAY was the day to start over, NO EXCUSES!  I can not go on like this.  I want to have energy for my boys.  I want to be able to keep up with them.  I want to be around for a long time! 

I took my measurements and again, cried!  After Ryan was out of school I went to Costco and stocked up on veggies.  I am doing this!  I texted Jim and told him that this entire week I'm eating chicken and veggies and that's exactly what I planned to do!  This is currently one of my favorite meals...Chicken, roasted brussel sprouts and this rice that I found at walmart.  Yummy!

Poor Jim!  He had no idea what he was in for when he got home from work on Monday night.  I again broke down into tears and told him I'm embarrassed.  I told him that I need his support and I need for him to help keep me accountable.  He was cool with chicken and veggies.  He too wants to lose weight (it's so easy for guys!).  He is always a great support and I really don't give him enough credit. 

We had our pictures taken at the end of November.  I really wanted a nice photo of the two of us.  We got a few nice picture but I hate them!  I hate the way I look.  All I see is the added weight and my double chin.  

So I started 3.0 on Monday and have done the workouts every day.  I've eaten really well all week and have drank at least a gallon of water each day.  I have been logging everything on MyFitnessPal.  I am feeling good about it!!  We did go for pizza last night but I just had salad and one slice of pizza. 

So here we go AGAIN!  I don't know how often I'll get to blog, it seems like I never get the time anymore.  But I will check in here and there for my accountability for myself.  I WILL do this this time!!!