Weekly weigh in and 60 day check in!

Today's weigh in did not go as I had hoped for.  I weighed myself this morning and knew it wouldn't be good.  Shark week is on it's way and I can feel it.  I was UP 2.2 lbs.  :/  Was really hoping to hit my 20 lbs again but not this week.

Today is also the 60 day mark of the BBM Challenge.  I can't believe it's been 60 days!  Here are my measurements:

Chest  43.5" (-1.5")

Waist  43.5" (-3.5")

Hips  50.5"  (-1.5")

R Thigh  19.5"(-3.5")

R Upper Arm 13" (-")

Total inches lost = 11" 

Weight: 222.2 (WW)

Total weight loss: 3.4 lbs 

Weekly Weigh In

Today's weigh in was hopeful!  I didn't stress it and actually didn't even step on the scale before leaving the house, which usually doesn't happen.  I was happy to see that I had lost 2 lbs!  I was kinda bummed that I was .2 lbs away from my 20 lbs again but I didn't dwell on it. 

I was surprised but happy.  We went to dinner on Thursday but like I said, I was careful with my meal.  Then we went out to dinner on Friday and had beers.  But I did get back on track mostly Mon-Thur.  I'm just hoping it doesn't sneak up on me next week. 

Like I've said, there are going to be lots of changes in our household soon.  I did NOT get that job at the CU but she said I'm at the top of her list for anything that comes up.  I've applied for many others.  It's getting beyond stressful!

I am also thinking about canceling my WW membership.  I will still follow the plan and continue to weigh in on Thursdays.  But it is one cost that I can for sure cut out.   Going to think about it a bit more and then decide. 

We're on day 54 of my BBM Challenge and I'm still hanging in there and liking it!

Weekly Weigh In/ Day 47

I weighed in this morning and was up .4 lbs.  Not a big deal but I'm kicking myself because I was down more yesterday.  I hate how it fluctuates day to day.  However, thinking back I had beer two days this week and ate out a couple of times.  That's probably why.  Not a big deal though.

today is day 47 of the challenge and I've finished the workout.  It was 4 workouts and you do them three times.  On the last set of lunges my left leg gave out on 16/20 and I fell right to my butt.  Thank goodness I was at home and not at a gym.  I decided to not finish the last 4 and rest until the next exercise.  All is good!  I pushed myself though and am now a sweaty mess!!

Weekly Weigh In

I weighed in today at 221.6 lbs which is a 1.8 lb loss from last week!  I "cheated" a bit and wore shorts at weigh in instead of capris though.  My reason was to balance it out since this week is Shark Week, so really it's not cheating right?!  Hoping for another loss next week!

Weekly weigh In

Today's weigh in was good and I hope for more like today.  I lost 2.8 lbs!  With the inches that I lost and now the weight loss I feel more confident in the challenge I'm doing.  It is working. 

I still have 3 more lbs to go to get back to where I was before Christmas.  Hoping to see another loss next week!

Weekly Weigh In

I was UP .8 lbs today.  Ugh!  Hoping to get it off next week!

Today is day 26 of my BBM Challenge.  It's going well so far!  Even though this week's workout was complete torture I still look forward to them.  My clothes are starting to feel better even though I don't visibly see it.  I think on day 30 we take pictures, weigh and measure. 

Weekly Weigh In

I bit the bullet and weighed in this morning.  The scale was down at home so I was hoping for a loss on the scale at WW too.  Thankfully it showed a loss!  It was only -0.6 lbs but it was a loss and I'll take it!

I also received my 2nd 16 week hand clap charm as well as another for sticking with it for 4 weeks.  The lady that weighs me in has seen me gain the past month and so she was super excited to see me lose this week.  She kept cheering me on and saying that I'm so close to 15 lbs.  I was excited for the loss but kept thinking, I've been to 20 before and need to get back there.  I know I should think in small steps but I can't help it.  I'm still past my 5% thankfully.  So here are my current thoughts:

This week I WILL track!
I WILL drink a gallon of water each day!
I WILL lose next week!
I WILL continue my BBM workouts!
I WILL enjoy my rest day on Sunday!
I WILL track!
I WILL get back to 15 lbs gone!
I WILL get back to 20 lbs gone!
I WILL hit my 10% goal!


That's my focus right now.

In a funk!

I weighed in this morning for my BBM Challenge.  I was at 224.6 on my scale.  Not cool!  I didn't write down my starting weight but I think it was 222 lbs.  I was not happy!  In fact, it set my mood for the whole day which I didn't want it to but I couldn't help it.

I still went to WW with Lyndsey even though I didn't want to.  We don't weigh in, we just go to the meetings on Mondays.  I felt like the meeting was speaking to me.  I have been beyond frustrated and often thought about quitting WW since I'm not losing and using it like I should.  So this week they talked about just that!  They talked about taking small steps and one day at a time.  I sat there (in the front row) with tears streaming down my cheeks, trying not to cry and let anyone see me.  My friend Lyndsey was awesome and noticed and gave me a big hug to let me know it's ok, we've all been there.  Of course as soon as she did that the tears came faster.  I really wanted to book it to the restroom but didn't want everyone to notice.  It was rough!  I have made a commitment to WW and I won't be quitting, I'm just going to step up my game.

I went to do my BBM Challenge workout and she started off the video with a talk about how she stepped on the scale and had a gain.  She emphasized not to get discouraged that it will come with time.  There's no way you and do the workouts and not change your body.  I was so thankful to hear that from her, someone who's done it before.

All I wanted to do was cry, all day.  So this is what I posted on the BBM Challenge group:

Apparently I have lots to say this evening. LOL...sorry! I need to vent and maybe it will help someone else in the same boat too, maybe it wont?!

I enjoyed Briana's talk at the beginning of today's video. I'm going to be honest with you all. I was feeling a bit discouraged this morning when I weighed myself and took my measurements. I had a gain last week which I expected but this week I was hoping to have a loss (and am still hoping I will on Thur for my WW weigh in). I didn't gain a whole pound but was still discouraged. My Weight watchers meeting spoke to me too and I sat there in the meeting in tears.

I really enjoy these workouts and with the exception of today, look forward to them. I put in my 100% during them and it's hard to not see it reflect on the scale. I have lost 2 inches total so I'm seeing results there but had hoped for more and for it to reflect on the scale.

Weight loss is and always has been a constant struggle for me. I swear I can look at food and gain weight! I realize that muscle weighs more than fat. I am drinking plenty of water. I am not following her meal plan but doing WW and am aware of what I'm eating and except for Saturday night, have been pretty good! It's just frustrating and I hate that it consumes my life at times.

So with all that said...I will not give up! I'm going to plug away at it and if anything, I'll get stronger muscles, right?! Thank for listening!

My friends were super supportive and I appreciated all the comments.  Nobody said that they've gained but they all reassured me that it will come off (and I hope they're right).  I think that I just needed that reassurance.  I feel a bit better for getting it off my chest but honestly, I'll feel better when it starts reflecting on the scale and in my clothes.

Weekly Weigh In

I weighed in on Thursday and am up .4 lbs.  I am upset but not going to let it get to me (or at least try).  It is shark week but I don't feel bloated.  I'm sure I'm building muscle on the 90 day challenge too.

I just have to vent...A friend who I don't believe is doing all of the workouts, but says she is, of the 90 day challenge weighed in and said she's lost 6 lbs.  I also know she does not cook the best either.  I was bummed.  I am already bummed about my 4lb gain in the last 2 weeks but then she brags.  I know she's excited and that is awesome!  But I can't help feeling crappy because I want that (again) too!  I'm tired of putting in the work and have no results.  My good friend listened to me vent and brought me back to reality, she just had a baby 7 mo ago and was already up 15 lbs.  So the weight she's losing is probably baby weight.  Ok, I get that and I'll stop being upset and stop hating her.  ;)  (Totally kidding!) And thank you to my BFF for listening to my whining each week!  ;)

I still don't think it's fair that I'm putting in my 100% and just end up gaining.  I had my first beers on Thursday night in TWO WEEKS!  I had told myself in my head that I was going to not drink to see if it made a difference.  Plus after the holidays I felt like I needed a break!  oy!

Again, I'll admit...I'm not tracking.  I really tried one day but life got busy.  I've been watching what I eat (other than the pizza we had 2 nights in a row) and my portion sizes though.  I'm eating healthier snacks too.  My clothes feel better so I'm hoping I'm losing inches.  I'm not going to take them yet though.

I thought something different would be a shock to my body (in a good way) and get things moving again?!


Thank you Jenny for hanging in there and reading!!!  :)

Weekly Weigh In

I gained 3.4 lbs and I wasn't surprised.  I was hoping for a loss with the new workouts but I was already up from Christmas so I wasn't getting excited.  Briana from the BBM Challenge said she weighed herself too and was up 3 lbs and it's to be expected.  Hopefully it comes off next week.  :/

I'm back!

It's been over a month since I've blogged.  Did you miss me?  Probably not!  I'm not even sure I have readers which is ok, it's really just a journal for me anyway.

A lot has happened in the last month, it's been kinda crazy!  Let's see...my husband got laid off on Dec 4th.  The next day we drove 6+ hours away to ID for a job interview.  It was FREEZING!  He ended up getting the job and is supposed to start next week, if he takes it.  He's been able to do a side job, painting for a friend up until Friday which was nice!  Keep us in your prayers!

I was doing good with my mall walking, until winter break hit.  I was having a hard time getting any exercise in with the boys home.  My last workout was Dec 17th.  I hate that!  I like to work out and feel better when I do.  However, it was hard to make time for it.

Christmas was a good time spent with family and no drama.  The boys loved it and I enjoyed seeing their excitement! 

And then we all got sick, not at the same time just one after the other.  It's been fun.

I also got busy with making Christmas gifts so in my free time when I could've been working out I was busy sewing.  Next year I will definitely make it a point to start them much sooner!!!!

I continued to weigh in and make it to a few meetings.  I had two weeks of gain and then a loss right after Christmas.  I did not make it in last week though.  Partially because I stepped on the scale and saw a big gain and didn't want to face it.  Bad, I know.  I haven't been tracking and really need to get back to it!  I started the holidays off ok but then got too confident and over ate and not the best foods.  I had a mind set that I wanted to enjoy the holidays without stressing about my weight loss.  I didn't wear my fitbit over the holidays either, another no no!  I charged it and put it back on yesterday.  Then I forgot to switch it for my work out today.  Oops!

Speaking of work outs...Yesterday I started a 90 day challenge.  It's a FB challenge that I found.  It's called the Bikini Body Mommy Challenge.  I gathered up some friends for accountability and created a group on FB to hold us all to it.  It's NO joke!  Today was Day 2 (and Day 1 was only 8 min long) and my arms and legs feel like jello!  I was beat red after today's workout but it felt good.  I did not commit to doing this challenge because I want a bikini body, in fact I don't think that will ever happen.  I want something that will keep me healthy and active during the winter months.  This challenge can be done at or near home and only requires dumb bells, which I have, no gym membership required.  If anyone wants to join me, let me know!

Day 1 (yesterday) was only 8 min like I said but it was tough.  I'm out of shape!  I definitely have more lower body strength than upper.  I've never done a burpee in my life and have come to the conclusion that they are the devil!  For real!!!

Day 2 (today) was hard!!  I didn't do each amount that you were supposed to but I tried my hardest.  I know over time I will get stronger and be able to do it.  I have been doing the workouts in my bedroom/bathroom.  It's been working out great and I can lock the door so nobody can interrupt me!  I'm going to try really hard to stick with it for the 90 days!

Weekly Weigh In: Week 25

I got on the scale this morning and saw it was down so I decided to (cheat?) weigh in a day earlier than normal.  I was beyond relieved to see I was down 3.4 lbs!!!  I am back to my 20 lbs lost, just barely.  Now I need to keep going. 

Honestly, I'm not sure how it's possible.  I felt like I've over ate the past week.  I've had more sweets than I ever do as well as more alcohol. I only got one walk in last week due to the holiday and according to my fit bit results, my steps, distance and calories burned were down this week.  I'll take the loss though and hopefully it doesn't come back to bite me. 

I really hate this roller coaster but am not giving up!

Weekly Weigh in: week 24

I didn't want to go today but knew that I had to.  I skipped out last week and they'd be closed tomorrow so I knew I had to go today.  I was up on my scale at home (after being back down earlier this week) so I knew it wasn't going to be pretty.  Well...I gained.  It said I gained 2.2 lbs.  I am NOT happy!  In fact, I have been crying off and on since I left WW.  Shark week is finishing up and I can feel water retention in my hands but 2.2 lbs?!  I am SO close to throwing in the towel even though I know I shouldn't.

I am sure that going out on Sunday night with my mom for dinner (Mexican) and a concert didn't help.  But honestly, I accounted for it and was careful throughout the day because I knew I was going out. 

I am frustrated!  When I texted my mom to tell her and express my frustrations she told me to keep it up and not to give up.  To track diligently (which I know I should)  and to just get back on the wagon.  I know all of this and I am trying!  I just hate that I can't enjoy a beer with my husband in fear of gaining.  That I have to be careful of what I eat and drink in fear of gaining weight, period.  I hate that I can't eat what I want and not gain weight.  I am having a hard time staying on track since Jim's been home.  How come people can have their husbands home and still lose or maintain?  I hate that I have to look up the PPV before going to eat anywhere.  Sometimes I really hate the holidays!  I am already dreading tomorrow, although at my parents it's not as bad compared to Jim's family get togethers.  Tomorrow is turkey day and it revolves around food basically.  It is so easy for other people and they don't have to worry about it.  Even though I'm not tracking diligently, like I should be, I am well aware of what is going in my mouth. I don't often compare myself to others but dang it, why does it have to be a constant struggle for me?  I swear I can look at food and gain weight.

I have been increasing my activity in hopes of making things better and it's not working.  Why put in the effort then?  Trust me, I could be blogging, napping, cleaning my house or sewing while Ryan's at school instead of doing 3 miles at the mall.  I just don't get it. 

I am frustrated!  I have a migraine and am just having an overall bad day.  I am going to enjoy the time with my family tomorrow and try not to worry about food.  wish me luck!

Weekly Weigh In: Week 24

I stepped on the scale this morning and saw a 2 lb gain from a few days ago and so I opted to skip weigh in.  I'm sure it has to do with Shark Week that is about to arrive.  I haven't skipped a single weigh in and and honestly felt guilty but I couldn't deal with seeing another gain.  It sets the mood for my whole day when I gain and I didn't want another bad day. 

 In fact, I'm getting super frustrated.  Jim came home on Oct 17 and I've gained almost every week since he's been home.  I'm trying to skinny meals up but something is not working.  I haven't been tracking like I should but I have a hard time calculating them for meals I make.  I've got to figure something out!!!

Here's to a loss next week!

Weekly Weigh in: Week 23

I weighed in today and thought I'd at least maintain but was hoping for a loss.  Didn't happen!  I gained .4 lbs.  I know it's not even a full pound but I'm still disappointed.  Grrrr

Weekly weigh in: week 21

I gained .8 lbs today which took away my 20 lbs.  I was already expecting a gain since it's shark week and honestly, I'm glad it's not even a pound.  Hopefully I'll get it back off next week. 

Weekly Weigh In: Week 20

Well, I did it!!!!  I lost 1 lb and hit my 20 lbs like I was hoping for!  I was so relieved!  So I hit 20 lbs in week 20.  I'll take it!!!!

I switched my weigh in days to Thursday and it screwed up my app somehow.  I didn't miss any weigh ins even though it says I did. 

Goodbye 20 lbs! 

 

Next goal: lose 3.6 more lbs to hit my 10%

Weekly Weigh In: Week 19

I weighed in this morning at 220.4 which is a .4lb gain.  I'm not all bent out of shape about it but was hoping to hit my 20 lb loss.  Oh well, hopefully I'll get it next week.  I've got to figure something out because MY HUSBAND IS HOME!  He's been working in Texas for the last 4 weeks.  I'm glad to have him home but also nervous.  Wish me luck for next week!

Weekly Weigh in: week 18

I weighed in yesterday morning because I knew I was going to dinner and drinks with friends last night.  The scale was the lowest I've seen in a while so I was hoping it would reflect at WW too. 

Sure enough, it did!  I lost 2.4 lbs!  I was excited!  I was thrilled to be back on the losing scale but also bummed because I missed my 20lbs by .2 this time.  Ugh!  I didn't let it get me down, I'm planning to get it next week.  ;)

I was bad yesterday, hardly any activity, drank 2 margaritas (yum!) and ate too many beans and chips.  I was careful all day though and drank lots of water and a  low point lunch to hopefully offset it.  And now I have another boy with a fever so I don't see much but cuddling going on today.  😕

Weekly Weigh In: Week 17

I maintained this week which wasn't too bad since it was shark week.  I'll get it next week!  ;)