I can't believe it's been since Sept that I've blogged. Well, yes I kind of can. Life has been busy!!!! I had full intentions of redoing BBM 2.0 but honestly, I didn't like it. I decided to redo BBM 1.0 with some friends but then eventually threw in the towel on day 45 on Oct 20:
"Ladies, I suck! I am not fully committed to the challenge this time. I feel horrible for not posting but I keep letting life get in the way. I NEED to do the workouts but am having a hard time getting to them. So unless something changes then I won't be posting the workouts. If someone else wants to do it then please do!!! I hope you all are able to get the workouts in. I'm not making any excuses come the 3.0 challenge though and I will need you guys, my accountability partners!"
So I let life get in the way and didn't make time for it. Then I decided to let life just get in the way, period. I didn't watch what I was eating or drinking and stopped working out regularly. I started snacking at night and not healthy choices. I was drinking more beer and wine than normal. Then the holidays came and that brought more food and sweets. It was not pretty!
I knew the weight was creeping back. The batteries in my scale had died so I had no idea what I weighed. I could feel it though! I was not happy and borderline depressed about it. It affected my life more than I thought. I noticed that my seat belt in my car didn't have as much slack, something I've never worried about. I was exhausted more. And honestly it was affecting sex, something I never mentioned to Jim but I'm sure he knew. I hated the way I look. My stomach felt like it was growing by the day! I felt like I looked pregnant and I hate that!!!!
SOOOO, Monday came around and I saw that it was Jan 5. The start of BBM 3.0! I decided to switch the batteries in my scale and see if it made it come on. It did! I nervously stepped on and saw 251 lbs! The HIGHEST I have ever been...ever! Shit just got real!!!! I knew it was bad but not that bad. I had a melt down! Tears, self pity, searching for motivational quotes and pictures. I texted my BFF and Mom, my two main supporters. They were great.
I decided that TODAY was the day to start over, NO EXCUSES! I can not go on like this. I want to have energy for my boys. I want to be able to keep up with them. I want to be around for a long time!
I took my measurements and again, cried! After Ryan was out of school I went to Costco and stocked up on veggies. I am doing this! I texted Jim and told him that this entire week I'm eating chicken and veggies and that's exactly what I planned to do! This is currently one of my favorite meals...Chicken, roasted brussel sprouts and this rice that I found at walmart. Yummy!
Poor Jim! He had no idea what he was in for when he got home from work on Monday night. I again broke down into tears and told him I'm embarrassed. I told him that I need his support and I need for him to help keep me accountable. He was cool with chicken and veggies. He too wants to lose weight (it's so easy for guys!). He is always a great support and I really don't give him enough credit.
We had our pictures taken at the end of November. I really wanted a nice photo of the two of us. We got a few nice picture but I hate them! I hate the way I look. All I see is the added weight and my double chin.
So I started 3.0 on Monday and have done the workouts every day. I've eaten really well all week and have drank at least a gallon of water each day. I have been logging everything on MyFitnessPal. I am feeling good about it!! We did go for pizza last night but I just had salad and one slice of pizza.
So here we go AGAIN! I don't know how often I'll get to blog, it seems like I never get the time anymore. But I will check in here and there for my accountability for myself. I WILL do this this time!!!
